Time

It is so crazy how time flies, It has been nearly two months since I have posted. I really need to start using this, it costs money… Jesus lets see what has happened in my life?

I got a new job about a month ago, really long story hopefully, I will get to it sometime. I moved out of Boulder, closer to the job. I hiked a 14er, my car broke down and took three weeks to fix. I saw the love of my life and tried to talk to her but failed.

My current life situation: I work nights, and hate it. It literally impacts my happiness. One half of the week I accept the sleeping schedule and the other half I destroy it. I work 0:00 to 10:30 (but usually 12:00) and sleep 12:00 to 17:00. It is insane. After the 4 work periods go by I switch to normal hours, so that I can accomplish my hiking tasks.

I have succeeded to a certain extent but it is hard for me. I find myself in limbo when I get off of work. Do I fuck it and drink some coffee and run errands or go to sleep. My body needs the sleep but it is hard to do so. For me, Limbo is a state of mind where you don’t know what to do, you are stuck between two polar decisions. In my case, sleeping and getting shit done. Honestly, I work good on low sleep, those 5 hours usually do the trick but when 17:00 comes around and I wake up, it is really tough to accomplish any task.

Today is one of the few, I have literally put aside 3 hours of time today to write. I miss it. I miss telling my story. I have so many insane day to day stories that get lost in my mind. If I don’t write within a week of the event, the stories become a rocket ship with the end in mind and not events in between. This is a problem because the best things are often along the ride. That doesn’t make writing very attractive. Memory recall is the worst. I fucking hate it. Writing in the present tense is easy, recall is hard.

So here I am, it is July 29, 2020, two days before my 25th birthday. This year will be the best year of them all. I promise I will write more.